Runners High...My Therapy

Getting ready to run....

     

Outside Runs clear my head the most...it's my Time with God.

Hello Loves. How are you all? Happy Mother's Day if you are a Mother! Things have been a little bit crazy for me. Work, School, & well LIFE. Sometimes I feel on top of the world yet at other times I feel like I could crumble. I have felt really alone this week. Do you ever feel that way? I realize at the end of the day we truly have to be our own best friend & have a solid foundation & base for who we are. People are going to give their opinions about you either behind your back or to your face, but you have to be confident in WHO YOU ARE so that no matter what happens you know that you will be okay in the end.
      I think each year we get a little bit wiser in the things that shattered us or confused us before. I have always been a "People Pleaser," & always so worried to please others by getting their approval or making sure I don't have them mad at me but as I get older I try to care less & less. Unless they are someone I really value or cherish. As I have gotten older I try to handle conflict or confrontation head on, & if I've screwed up I am all for saying "Sorry." Yet if I feel I am not in the wrong I have gotten more careful in who I give those "I'm sorrys" too. I have felt really isolated lately & it is not a good feeling. Sometimes it feels like High School when you hear things said about you that are not nice & as tough as I am now & am a different person than that insecure high school girl it still stings. Gosh I think about celebrities & how tough their skin must be seeing all the negative things said about them. Can you imagine being in a grocery store & see your face splattered on US Weekly with a rude title either questioning your motives or criticizing your weight? I have to give those women credit. They must have some strong armor on.
      This past week was really hard too because my boyfriend is training for his next boxing match & I realize how hard it's been to not be able to see him or talk to him as much. He has become one of my best friends & it feels like a piece of me is missing. Yet I am so proud of his dedication & hard work. I realized I cannot be selfish because he has always been there & supported me so I need to give him his space & do the same. So this week I started working out again, & will continue because no matter what running is my therapy. Sometimes too when I have too much emotion to write or talk about I run it out. It is so healing because it does not take thinking & there is no judgement. When I write I can judge myself when I'm venting. When venting to someone else, they can judge me. Yet when I run...there is no judgement. I work out my problems just by zoning out. To me that is when God takes over & gives my mind a break. So what are you waiting for? Do what you need to do in your own way to shut off that chaos in your life; whether it be from the world or from yourself. Namaste.