A Summer's Glow...

Pure Bliss.....

Summer Living......

       Hello Loves!!! Happy September! How are you all? I have missed blogging a lot & so much has happened since the last time we talked. My last post at the end of July was about all of the changes that had happened, my breakup, & finding myself again. I still feel like each day we as women grow, & I know all the changes that happened that seemed scary were actually true blessing in disguise. I think I am truly the happiest I have ever been. 30 has truly been a beautiful year. It's so funny because I made a vision board back in January with one of my best friends Rasha & a lot of the visions I wanted to come true have & still are. I had my 1st solo art show, I moved out on my own, I left my job after nearly ten years, & so much more.
     

Body Acceptance never felt so good....

I think one of the biggest changes that I am really proud of & feel amazing about is that after many years of being obsessed over my weight, I have finally come to terms with loving my body. My weight obsession was like a bad best friend I could not kick since I was about 17 when I first started to gain weight. Then going on prednisone & gaining 50 pounds twice didn't help either. After years of keeping a food journal, I finally stopped & I have never felt better. Why do we feel we need to wait for a number to tell us when we can start living our life? You see, I had it wrong all along, because you have to love life, live it, embrace it, & in that you may just start to fall in love with your body. Also I had a two week flare up a few weeks ago with my autoimmune disease & it was really scary to the point where I thought I might relapse. Luckily I didn't, but it truly woke me up to the most important thing & that should always be my health, not my weight. Yes, I have cellulite, stretch marks, & I'll never have a flat tummy, but I am fine with that. There is so much more to life than counting calories. I have finally let go of that bad best friend (aka: My Weight Obsession) & I don't miss her one bit.
       Another exciting thing that has happened is I have fallen in love again. I know, it seems so quick but it always comes when you aren't looking. In this case, after just getting out of a relationship only at the beginning of the summer I was definitely not looking for another one. I'll never forget sitting there on Memorial Day so sad after my ex broke up with me. There I was a few days before my college graduation starting summer out completely heartbroken & feeling lost. Fast forward to today, celebrating Labor Day with my new love, yet aside from being in love again, I just feel found again. My new boyfriend has been my best friend since I was in 7th grade, & we giggle that our love story feels like one of those movies where you realize that person you've been searching for has been there all along. We had not seen each other in years, but once we did, it felt like no time had passed. Overall I am just so grateful. I'm healthy & in remission. I love my new job. I'm taking a year off of school to write, paint, & just live! It feels kind of like a "Summer Glow."

Love....

Pure Bliss...Coffee for two.